sometimes i think about killing myself but then i think about my mom and i just cant do it

I love you, i love every little thing about you. But if you don’t love me the same i feel no reason to try to be with you anymore. I think about you, and i feel numb right now. But im going to try to officially get over you from now on. A year and almost 5 months might not seem like a long time to any of you but in this year i learned way to much. I learned love is fun at times but there is a lot of sides of love i don’t ever wanna face. The jealousy, the lust, the pain and hurt. Mostly the broken hearts. I learned a lot and i thank you for the lessons and the heart break and i will always love you, but i guess until you are ready to love me again. I will just try too move on.